you know how girls always want to be the one to "change the bad boy"?

well, i feel as if it's reversed for me. i feel untamed, wild, stray. and then i look at this boy, i stand beside him, i listen to him speak. and he makes me want to be a better person. it's as if he's my inspiration to be good. when i'm around him, i just want to be kind and pure and happy. and his smile is brilliant, like when the evening is stormy and you wake up the next morning to the bright, shining sun and everything else melts away. and you're just so happy to be alive and where you are right then and there.

he even makes me want to reexplore things i thought i had shunned and shut the door on. like religion. and purity. and a benevolent human nature. i feel as if my eyes have been stapled shut, wandering in darkness, and he... he looks my way, and they are opened.

ay me.